Wednesday, February 2, 2011



While I was reading this interesting book recommended to me by a friend of mine, I suddenly had a strange thought. I’ve always had suicidal thoughts. I’ve always believed that one day; life might feel too much of a burden to me. But I’ve always thought of this moment had to be sort of special. I imagined it would at least hold a message to a world I no longer wished to exist in. But at this exact moment, I thought I should just walk to the kitchen, grab the sharpest of knives I could find, and cold-bloodedly cut my veins. I’d watch the growing pond that my blood has made on the ground. I’d not shed a single tear or let a scream of pain forcefully gush out. I’d not care to make this a big finale, or care for my last words to hold any bit of wisdom within them. 


I’d simply leave, silently, humbly.

1 comment:

  1. if you ever commit suicide i will come to your grave and laugh out loud and say :

    " HAH! ...your Loss! "
    life is dearly dearly difficult and hateful .....i dont pretend loving it ....but i have to explore it all before i can judge it ....thats what i think ....and we may never know if the after life will be any more fun .

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