dream

Sometimes we don't have the time to stop and notice how miserable we are, how off track our lives have gone. I've never confronted my self with the fact that I'm really unhappy. Not that I am depressed, I know what that feels like. This time is different.

I had a dream lately, I had my guts thrusting out of my body around the stomach area. It was really weird, and by weird I mean disgusting. A doctor told me -we're still in my dream- that I was so sad that my body couldn't take it. It is true, I'm very unhappy right now. Everything is falling apart. My friends changed. I changed. And most importantly, I'm having doubts in myself. I lost this sense that I'm one of the good guys, you know like a novel, when there's the good and the bad and you can easily spot which is which. Now I either believe I'm bad, or Neutral at my best.

I have to find something to make me happy right now.

on a side note: Have you ever sneezed while taking a piss? it's really a bitch :D