I know I've not been the best lately. I know I was too numb or too desperate or too grumpy. I just wanted to say that I really don't mean to. I'm sure you know this, obviously, because you know everything.
coming to know me more and more by time, I discovered things about me that I didn't like. Things that was not of my own choice. If it's not you who had put these on me, then I don't know who else could have. I'm not unsatisfied (at the mean time) and I have to confess that it taught me a lot about life, more than I even wish for at the moment.
But, God, I'm tired. It just feels like one of those projects we have in college that you wish to finish so that you can enjoy a good night sleep. This project, one that I really suck at, is been on for EVER. It's one project that I made the worst choices ever to be done at the beginning of it and now I'm paying for it. But in my defense, nobody sat with me and told me what I was getting into, So, to cut short, I'm just tired. And even though it's very tempting, I can't just end it all. I have responsibilities, towards you of course, and towards my Parents. I don't want to disappoint any of you.
So god, with your infinite power and wisdom. I'm sure you can help me on this. and while you're at it, Can you please help me discover what my potentials are and what my purpose of existence is?
P.s.: thanks for my hands, eyes, ears, etc.
yours faithfully,
Islam
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