I have one of the seven deadly sins, and that is ENVY...
"those who commit the sin of envy resent that another person has something they perceive themselves as lacking, and wish the other person to be deprived of it. Dante defined this as "a desire to deprive other men of theirs."
"In Dante's Purgatory, the punishment for the envious is to have their eyes sewn shut with wire because they have gained sinful pleasure from seeing others brought low."
a little cruel, don't you think?
It's more like, I just want to be the best in everything, as impossible as it is, it is an obsession of mine, one that is very powerful and dominating.
I guess it's because I gave up a lot of things that I didn't think I was quite good at, for example: being cool or funny or athletic, I'm not either of that. I'm an artist, born to be one, destined to be one. It's what makes me who I am, and when I'm told I'm not the best at it, I freak out.
Envy is as well fueled when I see someone getting something he doesn't deserve. like a douche getting a beautiful girl, or a guy who gets to travel around the world and he doesn't even appreciate it, or the girl that always treated me awful getting the best scores at school, goes to the best college, marries a rich guy and they live in one of the best places in the world ( yes, you know yourself, bitch :) )
the truth is: even if I hate those who have been bad to me throughout my life, when they finally get what they really deserve, it never feels good.
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