DANGER!!!

he was talking ,and for a moment, i thought he'd never stop. Does he hate me? does he care enough to hate me? do i make him sick in the guts? I guess I'll never know. i didn't want him to laugh, it hurts when he does, it's not a laughing matter anyway. I wanted to make it as less personal as it can get, but that's impossible, right?

the man was cruel dealing with my most intimate secrets. but if that's what it takes then I'm all for it. I knew from the very beginning that it wouldn't be easy. I knew it was a long road that I must finish. A man got to do what a man got to do, right?

then she entered, someone i could never trust. and here i was ,demanded to speak my heart with someone I wouldn't normally speak with. but again, may be that's exactly what I needed. for staying in the safe zone for a long time is not healthy, and I've been there for a long time. I remember when they said: danger is your friend, danger is an indicator, sometimes it tells you what not to do, but more often than not it tells you exactly what you have to do.

will I be ever look back at this and smile?

hope so...