An unholy blog

thoughts are fighting in my head . the good ones barely win . and i could easily think of one or two battles that i wanted the bad thoughts to win . my mind sometimes seems like a computer overloaded with whatever a computer gets overloaded with . the only difference is that on your computer u can format your hard disk . that's one option my mind doesn't have . meditation does help but sometimes not . sometimes , i just want to forget about things . a kind of escape you can call it . i hate acting , i hate lying i hate hypocrisy but sometimes i can't tell the truth . it hurts so much when u have to do something you don't like . when you deserve something you don't want . that's when your mind turns into a freaking wrestling match . i have no idea in shit what i'm talking about ...