they're fine !!!

hello it's me again ...
so i'll finish what i started , that's what i rarely do . but this time is different . i've talked about fighting things . and i recently found out it's not one battle i'm having . my battle is not a small part of my life , it's not a big part either . my battle is my life .
it's so hard when you don't know if u're strong enough to go through a fight or not , u have a 50 percent chance to be knocked out . you can't just put ur life and the life of the people who love you on the line , and in the other hand u can't just give it up and let them and yourself down ...
having to go through battles that others doesn't have to go through has alway pissed me off , what did i do to earn this . i don't deserve this , and i don't think my worst enemy does . but thinking of the other fights i didn't have to go to go through like serious illness as cancer or other things i have to thank god .so in the worst cases what could happen to me ? i could spend my whole life alone ? so what ??? many people do and they're just fine ...
el 7amdo lellah