i regret

i was watching a movie called the banger sisters , and well it's a comedy and well it shouldn't leave u thinking but it did with me . it talks about those two old friends who used to be rock bands groupies but one of them got married to a lawyer and had two daughter , she apparently lost track of her real self . trying to be a good wife / mother Lavinia (played by Susan Sarandon ) put on a fake personality and she moves with her life forgetting all about her past , all about her real self ...
i always tried to be that good boy and the teacher's favorite kid and whatsoever . it's always felt like the right thing to do . but now seeing how fake that was , and how it put that huge pressure on me i regret it , i regret how i tried so hard to be perfect for my parents not knowing that it's not normal to be perfect , not knowing that i could break a vase or spill the juice because i was a kid and that's what a normal kid does . i regret being scared of the dark and being afraid not to ask for their protection cuz thats what they should do : protect me . i regret being ashamed of each and every normal thing that any normal kid should do coz i was trying to be good enough or smart enough . did i turn out to be good enough ?
that's actually why i'm not happy with how i look . i changed my personality but i couldn't change how god made me . it's always felt like they will not like me coz i didn't look good enough for them.
i blame them for what i've become i blame myself as well . the question is : is too late for me to fix my fucked up life ?